Sunday, October 30, 2005

Pumpkina Demonica

The Family Pumpkin



Happy Halloween!

Saturday, October 29, 2005

You my dawg!

He is giving you that come hither stare.

he is saying," yeah, bitch. you know you want it. don't you....don't you?"

Anyways, enough of that cute guy and on to this one.

My parents are in Massachusettes ,or as my freinds would call it when I was a kid in Florida, mash-two-tits. This means I am manning the fort...Running the biz. Gotta tell you, it sucks. It sucks having to do all of the thinking for full grown adults. it sucks having to listen to full grown adults tell me something like, "I nevah knew y'al sold dooonuts in here." yes someone actually said this to me. I hate havin to hear pople tell me they want thier money back because ," I came in there three days ago and when i got home i left the donuts in my truck and didnt remmber them until three days later and when i got them they were totally hard." yes someone has actually said this too.

I guess you are going to have complete dumbasses that should have been aborted come in every now and then. i guess what really gets my goat is our employees. i know i know, they make just over minimum you expect rocket scientists? well, i am not rocket scientist. i'm not even that smart, but i have common fucking sense which seems to go out the door when our employees set foot in the store. thier brains shut down or something. dont know. its a bummer. anyways, almost all of the employees hate me because they all know i hate them. they are dumb and i am not so there is going to be friction, duh.

i try to be patient and understanding but is just too hard. and this is why i am back in school and learning something new to do with my life. fuck rednecks. fuck food service. fuck all of that.

fuck, i'm losing my will to type...more later......

Sunday, October 23, 2005

Live Through This.

A lot of people think that it is silly to think that Kurt Cobain was murdered. Maybe it is just hard to believe that anyone would want him dead, I don't know. That link will take you to a site that goes over evidence and gives you examples of certain aspects of his case that do not make sense. They show you another suicide, yeah, a real suicide, so you can see why it doesn't make sense. I suggest you don't watch that footage of the guy shooting himself. Its pretty brutal. Read the site though. Go through and I think you will see that he was murdered and probably by that evil cunt Courtney Love.

Monday, October 17, 2005


i have been listening to the new Sigur Ros record Takk a lot lately . i have to say, it is one of the most amazing things i have ever had run through my ears in a long time. in fact, i am listening to it right now and can only say that you have to hear it. it brings up all of these memories and feelings that you really dont think about much like:

  • the silver lining of a grey cloud.
  • your first kiss ever.
  • the minute you realize you are in love with someone.
  • the first time you feel you just heard your new favorite song.
  • a coffee and a smoke with a freind at a coffee shop on a really cold, grey winter's day.
  • a really long road trip with someone you really dig.
  • old freinds and the good times.
  • the plane ride home from a foreign country where you had the time of your life.
  • making a new best freind.
  • realizing you are not alone on this planet and some people really do care.
  • someone showing up at your door unexpectedly that you really wanted to see.
  • driving through the country on a sunny day.
  • those nights where you hang out with a bunch of people you have known for a long time and all the baggage is forgotten and everyone is happy to see eachother and really getting along.
  • coming home from a long trip and see ing you boyfreind/girlfreind or husband/wife and feeling really good to be home.

the list goes on and on. from begining to end this is a beautiful work of art...its what jim morrison said he thought rock n' roll was,"an expression of unbound joy like kids playing on the beach." i know this all sounds dramatic and cheesey...

get this record. please. do yourself or someone else a favor and get it. set aside and hour or so and listen to it. i mean, really listen to it. you'll understand.

Friday, October 14, 2005

I Hate the South

So I thought as a treat for you all I would try to find my mugshot and post it here. Yes, your truly spent about 4 hours in jail once. That was a long time ago and neither here nor there.

while searching on google for my mugshot I was directed to a weird site called I have to say. It is one of the most racist piece of shit sites I have ever been too. It absolutely kills me that people like that are even allowed to live in modern times. People like that should be killed or have there babies killed so that they don't breed anymore hate. God damn it.

I try not to hate things or people or whatever. I feel like everyone has the right to express how they feel no matter how backwards or stupid it is, but racism I cant hang with. I know that's a pretty average reaction to racism, but I don't think I could ever fully express how any form of racism affects me. Its this really deep thing that I cant even explain which is one of the reasons why I hate living in north Carolina.

one of the most absorb things I hear all the time is that NC isn't like that anymore or that we live in the "new south". bullshit. It hasn't changed. I hear some stupid ass racist thing everyday. People that work for us make dumb ass comments about how we shouldn't allow all these illegal immigrants work at our store....When there are none. They make comments about how "Mexicans" (Mexicans is in quotes because to these shitkickers anyone who isn't from the US is Mexican) come here and take all of our jobs. This is one of the most absurd things to hear. Not only because it couldn't be further from the truth but because my entire family is "Mexican" (my parents are from Portugal). These assholes make these comments to immigrants... duh!

the police certainly consider my family "Mexican" too. My parents gt pulled over regularly and for no reason. Recently my mother was walking their dog and when she passed by this rednecks house he started yelling at her and threatening her because the dog went on his yard. He said he was going to call the police and did. My mom went to the police station to tell the cops what happened but before she could get anything out her mouth they asked her if she was Spanish.

my brother gets harassed constantly and was recently pulled over and had money and other things taken from his car, including some drug paraphinilia by off duty police officers. A car load.

I cant even tell you how many times I have been pulled over or followed right up my parents drive way by the pigs only to have them back out and not say anything to me. This is in Nashville, North Carolina. Just outside of Rocky Mount, NC.

new south my ass. They are just better at hiding it if you ask me.

if you saw me walking down the street you wouldn't know I was a portugy. You wouldn't know at all. But cops love it when they punch my license plate into their little computers and that funny last name comes up that they cant pronounce. They love it so much that they pull me over.

we live in an incredibly racist part of the country. You can tell me that it isn't true, but if my family, who look white, are constantly being harassed by some shit kicking cops that have nothing better to do, what could it possibly be like for the growing Hispanic population here or black people. I don't even want to think about it. Its just going to make me more angry.

damn it.